Blegh.

99.9% Of the time people fucking enrage me.
And the sad thing is, it's normally people i know exclusively online,
I build relationships with them, platonic friendships which grow incredibly strong considering we don't know one another online.
As some of you may know I have a hard time identifying with people in real life, so i tend to turn to the internet to find people to communicate with.
Normally, I can't be bothered to care so deeply for most of my online friends (yes i care about all of my online friends but I have deeper connections with some)
Yesterday I got into an argument with a friend i care deeply for,
over something they saw as trivial but i perceived it to be quite important.
And because i chose to openly express my thoughts and feelings we are no longer friends.

Why is that?
Is it so hard for other people to accept outside thoughts and opinions?
I know even if it's something i don't agree with I still wont end a friendship just because of how the other person sees things. I mean if you were to look at my friendship with Brendon,
it's the perfect example, a lot of times our opinions clash and we end up debating them,
we view the world differently.
And that's fine, i accept his opinions even if I don't follow them,
hell sometimes it even spices up the conversation.

I don't know, I just hate to lose such a good friendship over something so trivial.
What do you guys think?

Thought's at 4:22 in the morning.

So it's 4 am..
I went to bed around 10 feeling incredibly tired thinking i was going to sleep until jerry got up for work (6 am)
I found myself up and wide awake at 2. WHY?! #%$^%$@$!
I am feeling stressed for no known reason
Damned sleep deprivation for once it would be fantastic to sleep like a normal person lol
Could someone bring me a coffee? that would be lovely thanks.
I don't know how i did it but i bit my lip hard and now it's all funky looking
Hahaha i was going to try and make this much better than it's turning out, oh well.

My brain won't let me type anything interesting, so i am going to end this.

First

I never got into the blog movement,
perhaps because i never have anything interesting to say.
But I'm going to give this a shot.
I don't really know what i am going to post, most likely just daily event's and rants.
I am also thinking of posting some of my writing
( yes shock and awe i do write)
I guess we will just have to wait and see.

Hrmm, thought's right now.
I think something is wrong with me, no matter how much sleep i get i am always tired..always
I am currently trying to counter act this feeling by imbibing NoS, it tastes like sad.
I wish i could Vlog as much as i used to, I have been on youtube for almost 3 years
but lately i have been feeling so very uninspired.
I love the creative content spewing forth on the tube but i really miss the day's when the Vlogers ruled.
Jerry is very addicted to Call Of Duty World At War.
In 4 weeks i will have a little sister and i already feel overprotective of her
My dad feel's guilty because our relationship was less than great when i was little, i don't hold anything against him because of it, but the constant text's and phone calls are kind of annoying.



I guess that's it for now.
I'm thinking of posting on a semi-daily basis if enough people get into reading it.